My Grandfather has been in a nursing home since my Grandmother passed away over a year ago. I've only visited him a handful of times. I have my excuses for not visiting, but the truth of the matter is, I feel helpless and ineffective and very awkward when I visit him. I feel like it comes off me in waves. He was never much of a talker, and I love him to pieces. I don't know how to get past the loss of *that*.
My FIL is still struggling with his battle with cancer, and has had some small improvements. I pray for him and the family.
One friend has just been diagnosed with a Pancoast Tumor, causing severe pain in his shoulder, arm and hand. He begins radiation this week. He is a sweet, sweet man who thinks of the Circus here as part of his extended family. I hate that he's going through this and pray for strength and comfort for him and his lovely wife.
One friend is dealing with an unknown health foe and potentially facing a diagnosis she doesn't want to hear. She is a fantastic woman with a very generous spirit. She has shared some of her struggles, and I just can't imagine how she keeps an optimistic attitude in the face of what she's gone through so far, let alone what the future holds. I wish I could wave a magic wand and heal her symptoms or give her better answers or solutions. Short of being able to do that, I pray for her and her family.
Another friend has a very, very busy life and she can't figure out how to take time for herself, and being able to accomplish the things she wants to accomplish. She is a fabulous person with a terrific heart. I'm concerned about her burning out somehow. I don't have any answers for her, but I really wish to God that I did.
One coworker was diagnosed with breast cancer just before the holidays. She went in yesterday for a second lumpectomy, and will being radiation treatments shortly. I pray and worry for her and wish I could help somehow.
Another coworker was diagnosed with an "unknown" cancer two weeks ago. They know she has cancer, but they can not currently locate the source. I don't know her very well, but I pray for her and wish I could somehow be of help.
I believe another coworker is battling cancer, but I do not know the specifics. I've only ever just said "hi" in passing, and now I don't know what to say when I see her in the hallways.
People I know are fighting their own battles, coping with their own losses...
I don't know what to do to help these people, and I begin to feel helpless... so I hope for them and pray for them and keep them in my thoughts. I wish it could be more.